2010 m. gruodžio 28 d., antradienis

artumo išsiilgusios traukos prisirpę
galvos susidaužia.
lekia kosminiu greičiu tolyn
susigėdę.
nebėga pažiūrėti į akis.

susidėjau žodžius į kišenes
kad galėčiau vėliau pasėti
didelius darbus.
kada nors gims traktatas apie žvėris. visus tuos pūkuotus, dygliuotus ir kitus padarus mano gyvenime.

medžiojau lapę, pagavau vilką.
tik ką dabar su juo daryti?
jaukinti?
paleisti?
nušauti?
ištrinti?

2010 m. gruodžio 12 d., sekmadienis

jei būčiau stiprus, uraganu nuūžčiau per gyvenimus.
dabar tik lygumos leidžiasi ant mano galvos.

2010 m. gruodžio 5 d., sekmadienis

mountain

There is a mountain. You're climbing up to top and trying to reach it. But probably a top is very small. And there can stay only one person. But until you reach it you don't see if there is someone there. Climbing is very hard. All time you can slip and fall down to abyss. If that would happen, you would never be on top of the mountain. But if you would reach the top and it would be free, you also could start to think that it took too much work for such a small thing. Maybe the top would look too small to stay there... What would happen, if the top is not empty? Remember, there is place only for one. Then you would have to fight. There is always bigger chance for one on the top. You would fall down. Somebody, who is on the top would win again, but you would loose everything. What if both of you would fall down? Then the mountain would loose two friends. And the top of mountain would be lonely in the wind and rain. The top would be sad and cold... Maybe it is better to stop somewhere and stay not on the top? To fight for something you are, but not for that what you just try to be? Do you know why you don't see if there is someone on the top? Because it's mountain, not valley. It's easier to reach valley. When you climb in mountain you don't see anything: what is on the other side, on the top. nothing.. Maybe you will wish to go back. it's your choice. That's the way how the mountain loose friends, which had only one wish: to reach the top...

There is always possibility that a bird will come and take you to the other mountain which top is free. Without any struggle. Maybe that bird would be sent by other mountain. If that would happen, then you would see all your mountain and _one_side_ of the mountain you wanted to reach. It depends on your mountain if u would see other mountain top . It depends how high is your mountain. But you would see the mountain and the mountain would see you.

(from my dear friend V. i still miss you)